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I'm proud to say that although my conversation with Russ started off a little rough, it ended very nicely. To say I was a little mad on Monday would be quite the understatement. To make it worse right off the bat- I had driven over to Russ' apartment as planned (my plan) and called to tell him I wanted to meet there. I got a solid 20 seconds of dead silence. When he spoke he asked me to come to his office and talk there. We went back and forth because I wanted to know was there something in his apartment that he didn't want me to see? No but he just didn't want to meet there. Back and forth...

I ended up at his work. We hashed it out and when it was all said and done we were agreeable on several things and planned to work on them- seriously work on them. If it doesn't get better now it never will and I will have to accept that and walk away. Since my biggest complaint was the communication we don't have, he vowed to work on it. And if I get to a point where I'm happy with how that's going then we'll start working on what he wants. (Just as an fyi this is his suggestion) I did not agree to this because then he still won't be happy.

Anyways, we talked for the whole commute home on Tuesday and he was upbeat and actually did most of the talking. Wednesday and today we had lunch together. Tonight we are also meeting for dinner in a little bit. There was even talk of going golfing this Sunday. I have to say that I am impressed, happy and impressed. I truly hope that this continues because despite all of our issues over the last couple of years I can say that this is what I want. I want to be with Russ. I have had my doubts in the past but my heart just seems to keep coming back to him. Hopefully he still feels the same but only time will tell.